It lurks beneath the surface. A grief, you must know, a grief that I cannot quite find the right words to encapsulate its shape and size, the weight of it, the graininess of its taste it my mouth, the sourness on my tongue… I hate it. (I hate it with all my being) When it … Continue reading
If I could sever my brain from my body I wonder what the outcome I wonder what I would say yes to I wonder from what I would run If I close my eyes And shut off my thoughts I sink into the pleasure Of you Not of your slick body Not of the outpourings … Continue reading
Over the last few days, I have been reading. Reading old emails and exchanges, years old text messages from numbers now lost to the dark corners of mind (and most certainly deleted out of the perfect recall of my contact list!), and there are some conclusions that can be drawn from all that truth, all … Continue reading
too many often seek pleasure as if it would be, could be, is, the cure for pain they are fundamentally wrong
The past few days have been a hell of a roller coaster…and you know what? I hate roller coasters.
I want everything for us. I want for us to have a full life. Continue reading
You think presence is presence. I know that absence is more than.
Two snakes intertwined one night to rest, both wary but strangely eased by the familiar press of cold, reptilian skin. In the middle of the night, one snake bit the other. “Argh!” the injured snake cried out. “Why did you bite me?”
Well. It’s been almost eight months and the relationship that I had thought (hoped, believed, put faith in) as being, potentially, the one that would go the distance. I was wrong.