I always used to say after every breakup “I don’t understand how people do this” and by “this” I meant the opening up of oneself, the inevitable disappointment, the disconnecting and retreat which leads to the inevitable break…ad infinitum. The truth is, most people don’t keep doing this.
I have done this danse macabre again and again and my heart cannot take it simply because the human heart was not meant to, was not designed, to be shattered and mended so many times over.
I could be wrong. I hope I am and that this is merely momentary histrionics, but, I do, really and truly so, believe that the next one will kill me.
Or, if it doesn’t, what’s left behind will be of no worth or value to anyone.